I'm Mormon, and I don't think that the lifestyle is a good choice for your eternal progression. One of the responsibilities of mankind given to is by god is to get together as man and woman and have children. If you live the gay lifestyle than you will never be able to have your own biological children. That said I don't think anyone has the right to restrict your civil liberties. God has made us all responsible for our own actions and it's wrong of other to try and force you to do something. I believe that God still loves you and knows what you are feeling and understands what you have gone through in your life. If any religious guy is mean to you then he is not following Christ's teachings. If Jesus were here he would try and teach the gay community, not destroy them, and he would love you since you are a child of god and a brother.