As a teenager, I did it "inadvertently".
Ya see, I had allowed a few terrible experiences with girls to shape how I perceived myself sexually. I basically drilled it into my own head that no female would ever find me attractive, leading to repression. (Which was pretty stupid as I'm a moderately attractive guy, but I had other issues compounding this.)
Anyways... Senior year, a girl in my drama class asked me to prom. I was completely caught off guard and panicked.
Not only did I say no, I immediately doubled down and angrily accused her of trying to make me her charity case. I think I did that, in front the entire class mind you, to cover up exactly how absolutely confused and sort of terrified I was at the prospect of positive female attention.
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Ouch. Did you ever apologize or talk?
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[quote]Ouch. Did you ever apologize or talk?[/quote] Nope. Too embarrassed or ashamed to do anything other than try desperately to pretend like it never happened. Fixation on failure is something it's taken me a long time to learn to deal with, even though I still can't stop doing it. Thanks, OCD. (Compounding issues I mentioned earlier...)