I completely understand dude. If I can show the world who God really is then I'll do it any way I can. Example lets say I get hate on hear, I should handle it with grace because how can being wrathful show people who God is. See I know God, God is love. If I show love when being hated I just showed someone who God is because without God how can I be an example of that love and that grace that abides with God? I can't. If I convert people well hey that's amazing if not, well I tried.