I posted in here long ago, but pretty much I wanna kill myself but I just cant do it. I got a dog several months ago whose become so attached to me I couldn't leave her like that. As for my parents and friends I dont care as much. I havent told really anyone either, as im really introverted especially about pussy shit like feelings, but I keep telling myself I can do it alone. I know I can't, but im just really stubborn. I know that I need help but I don't want to be on antidepressants. I should probably talk to my doctor, definitely not a therapist though.