I apologize. In context of text I hope you see how an individual who dealt with suicide, successfully had I not been found unconscious both times, could mistake that statement as attention seeking (a term I typically despise) Pain is real regardless of its form. Suicide contemplation itself is poison. It destroys you from the inside. Stay strong Guardian, at twenty six I have two rehabs, six thefts four assaults and one murder in self defense. You aren't even close to failing, you have incredible strength even in your darkest moments you're alive. Let the power of that really sink in. Please understand that if your need is genuine, you have help. Contact me if you feel you are in a crisis. I have information and a multitude of resources. Silent voices can't speak their pain, don't let it kill you. Please.