[b]if you don't want this here, don't bump it[/b] [i]It just hurts It's like I'm just not needed anymore. I was there for a year and a half of mornings without a reason to get up, nights where she just couldn't fall asleep, and dramas that would make Shakespeare jealous. But now, I can't even get a replicated "hey". It just hurts to know that i invested a year and a half to making you the best you could be, not even to be able to tell you that I miss you without utter heartbreak in return. That's what makes it so sad, I know she's busy as hell, and I can respect that, it's just that that excuse is wearing thin. I'm at the point where I'm beginning to think that I'm not even worth the 1-2 sentences in response to "goodnight", it's as simple as "I-am-busy-ttyl" or even "I'm-busy-,gn", but nothing ever comes back. My other concern is that if she is infact so goddam busy that she cannot manage a simple "goodnight" on a Sunday night, then I want to be right there with her, helping her out so that I can just see her smile. If she is in that bad of a state, please, let me help you! I have for a year and a half, what on Earth makes you think that I'm won't now? I just want to hear from you, whether it's "I'm busy" or "I'll talk to you later" or even "I need help". If I didn't care about you, why would I send a "goodnight" at 10:30pm on a Sunday night when I know all I'll get is pain. Because I'm a fool who things you may just pick up. It..it just hurts.[/i] [b]Hate if you want, love if you can[/b]