At a point where anything I choose will change my life, life style, and myself at a fundamental level. I'm trying to persue the option that will effect my life in the most positive way. Nobody cares, and nobody will. I have accepted this. I just honestly afraid that if I so pursue the option I am I will change so much that I won't be the same me. So yeah. [spoiler]yes I'm currently working, trying to figure my life out.[/spoiler]