[quote] I'm here to remind you that tomorrow could always be a better day. Maybe you'll improve grades. Maybe you'll get a raise. Maybe you'll get a new phone, or a new videogame. Maybe you'll get a kiss, or have sex, or become a parent.[/quote] Well, i doubt better grades, getting a raise or a new phone or game could help me rid of feelings of how on SOOO many days, i feel like I'm going to be alone the rest of my life. Especially when you have the lowest of self-esteem, like me. Given my nature of being a pervert, as many of you know me as one due to my posts, pair this with my low self-esteem, and you get me with the feeling of I'm going to live alone. Its all natural selection, and i have lost at it. So many times, just by watching or listening to a k-pop or j-pop song with a singer that i love over and over again, or looking through my pics of hot models, i somehow get that feeling that i wont ever find anyone. "Maybe you'll get a kiss, or have sex, or become a parent.". Yea. Doubt thats possible with the likes of me. So frequently, throughout my years of living, i get these swings of how life is just a cycle. you wake up, eat, go to work, eat, then sleep. Sure you could have fun in between, but thats only so short. Makes you feel that theres no point in living because its all just a damn cycle. Whenever i feel any of the above feelings of despair, i have to cry myself to sleep. I hate these feelings and i want them to stop, but i cant. Tldr; its not that easy op. It just isnt. If it was, i wouldnt be feeling what i feel right now.