Dying without warning is the worst surprise anyone can get, dying with no definite purpose. It hurts.
For the first time in my life I'm genuinely scared about something. Not seeing the people i love anymore, not achieving my objectives, wasting time.
Time, short yet overwhelming. Time makes the strongest human vanish in his long and tedious courtroom. Im sad, I'm anxious, i fear that all that I've done has been in vain.
In less than 3 hours, a pivotal moment in my life is going to happen, and if i make it, I won't be the same, not anymore.
Because I'm cheating death, I'm fooling my demise, postponing the inevitable.
The truth is, I'm scared...
[spoiler]Farewell, for now ^-^[/spoiler]
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I'm guessing you're starting chemo or something due to the #cancer. If this is a joke then you're a dick but if not and this is real, cancer isn't a death sentence. You will be ill and it probably will change you. I can't say to much on the subject as I haven't and don't have cancer but I've seen it first hand. My only advice would be stop focusing on death and point your attention to getting better