For me, it's more so that I can't form a friendship with somebody without turning it into a toxic bond built on mistrust, anger, and straight up envy. I'm too -blam!-ing full of myself to admit that some people deserve a friend regardless of the way they play, or how much they dedicate their lives to video gaming. Whenever I'm friendless, I see this clearly, but the toxicity returns when I form a friendship with a group of people.