I'll be short and sweet.
[quote]There are a few key details I forgot to include that have already happened at this point in the timeline.
- I once pulled a double so she could have a date night with her boyfriend while he was in town. (he goest to school about two hours away.
- What prompted the 'talk' was that I heard that a girl confronted her about she and I and she told the girl that she had to "talk about her boyfriend a lot around me." this was not true. she only talked about him when I was around.
- I once locked my keys in the building and she came to unlock it for me, asked me if I did it intentionally. I did not.
Now to resume the narrative. Disney Trip!!
Y'all remember how I called her Sunshine? well, on the car ride down. I asked all of my friends on IG what my theme song was. Her response was "Here comes the sun" by the Beatles.
While we where down there, we texted, snap chatted, and messaged each other constantly. We did those cute weird rituals of exchanging photos of what we looked like while we were kids/babies/tweens/early teenagers.
I introduced her via social media to my niece and nephews.
We swapped a ton of music, she made me a playlist, I made her a playlist. we talked about shows and concerts we wanted to go to. We talked about all the TV we'd been watching, gave each other recommendations and most importantly, we developed a nasty habit of snap chatting till after 2 am.
It was fun.
We carried on in this pattern after I got back for over a month. I went to see her three or four times at her store.
I missed her terribly.
No one had her energy. No one was as fun, exciting, or motivating as Sol.
However, I couldn't keep it up forever.
I started to feel dirty about the whole thing, I started growing paranoid. I became convinced she only talked to me because I texted her first, so I stopped texting her. She still texted me.
Eventually, I thought she was avoiding me because she didn't show up to a few events we mutually attended. She wasn't. I started thinking that she had to hate me for making her life awkward. She didn't. I believe all of this paranoia was myself trying to convince me that she didn't want to see me anymore so I could cut off communication without seeming like a tool.
However, I had man up once again and confront the issue.
One night, in early June, I texted her once again.
it was a long message so I'll summarize.
"Sol, I love talking to you, but you know how I feel, and you still have a boyfriend. I want to be respectful of you and your relationship, and we talk too much and way too late for the situation we are in. It makes it hard for me to get a grip on my feelings. So I think there should be some boundaries around how we talk. no more snap chatting after midnight. etc. etc."
the next morning she responded thanking me for bringing it up and she completely agreed with everything I said.
This ended our daily communication.
We then talked every other day or so for about three weeks, then, without a notice, she stopped talking to me entirely.
Little did I know, the whole time this had been going on, she never told her boyfriend a thing.
Secrets are not meant to be kept, and a third party decided to inform her boyfriend for her.
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Sorry I missed this one. I’m all caught up now! Also, big oof