Loss is something we all share. My heart goes out to you and those in your circle. Know you are not alone. I wish there were words that we pass on each other to help us heal the pain and any negative emotions we feel in situations such as these. Stay strong. Reach out, even if it's to stranger on something so irrelevant to your situation such as a forum for a video game. I'm sure there are many guardians that will listen and try and offer their perspective to try and help you through troubled times. Much love