I don't want to go into detail, but I've done some f.ucked up s.hit to other people as a young child and when I was 11-12 or so. I also used to steal things and stuff like that. Now, a few years later, I have aged and looking back I really regret it. A day doesn't go by where I don't feel ashamed and regret because I was so quick to lose my innocence in this world. It makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me, because I see so many people who don't have problems like these. Its been really heavy on my mind for far too long and I just feel like sharing with HF.
Apart from that I am normal and happy, and have a few friends. Its just once I remember s.hit like this my whole mood changes and it upsets me.
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I actually pondered about this the other day: There is a saying to "Live without regret", it has dawned upon me that no one can live by this. With the infinite possibilities of what you could have done, what you have done, how, when and where and what you thought while doing anything and will do will cause doubt in the mind as to the finite path you have laid behind you, here and to come: thus my thought to you is don't live without regret of having done something or not, it simply can't be done; rather, live to regret you can't do it all.
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Tie up loose ends, make ends meet, right what you did wrong and every little thing will be all right.
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[quote] It makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me, because I see so many people who don't have problems like these.[/quote] Some do but dont want to talk about for the same reasons like you. Everyone has a skeleton in their closet. The only thing you can do is move on by talking with someone you trust. Once you tell someone then you have some closure for yourself. Then what you can do is be with people that make you happy. Having positive feelings can also help you the most.
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I would feel like an ass if I left you with only a stupid response. The fact that you actually show regret toward past actions shows that you learned from them and have changed for the better. So, I guess at this point you should just stop thinking about it, if that's possible.
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Jump on his chair and beat the shit out of him.
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You can't help the past, don't linger on it. Look towards the future and just strive to do better.