I don't want to go into detail, but I've done some f.ucked up s.hit to other people as a young child and when I was 11-12 or so. I also used to steal things and stuff like that. Now, a few years later, I have aged and looking back I really regret it. A day doesn't go by where I don't feel ashamed and regret because I was so quick to lose my innocence in this world. It makes me wonder if there is something wrong with me, because I see so many people who don't have problems like these. Its been really heavy on my mind for far too long and I just feel like sharing with HF.
Apart from that I am normal and happy, and have a few friends. Its just once I remember s.hit like this my whole mood changes and it upsets me.
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I actually pondered about this the other day: There is a saying to "Live without regret", it has dawned upon me that no one can live by this. With the infinite possibilities of what you could have done, what you have done, how, when and where and what you thought while doing anything and will do will cause doubt in the mind as to the finite path you have laid behind you, here and to come: thus my thought to you is don't live without regret of having done something or not, it simply can't be done; rather, live to regret you can't do it all.