I can't view videos :c You have a talent for make up art. I love seeing what you make with it and you have a cool creativeness about you. Despite being confused about a lot of things concerning yourself you have a sort of confidence behind your words. A certainty at times that you may not even realize. I really worry about your choice in emotional release however. As someone who used to be in that..situation I know it's difficult to just stop. Even if you know you should. I want to see you prosper, climbs the broken ladders set in front of you, and come out loving who you are in the end.