I was horrible at this game when I got it. I've always been about average for PVP but I literally could not kill anyone and felt like I was dying really fast. The thing is, you do get better, even if you don't necessarily become more skilled. With knowledge of maps and routes, and understanding of team mechanics, and finding weapons that work for how you play, you will learn how to succeed. 175 rounds later, I often enjoy my time spend in the crucible. I have exotic bounties to thank for pushing me to play the crucible again. If I had spent the time here complaining instead of just getting it done, I wouldn't have known I actually enjoy it.