Your passion isn't someone else's passion. Some people are more than content with being average and can live happy lives being average. Being a gamer or writing fiction doesn't make you depressed either. It's great that you found a way to help with depression but it also sounds like you gave up a part of yourself in the process. Being a gamer isn't about being lazy or being depressed. It's a passion for a lot of is. It's a way to live in a fantasy world we can't live in the real world and become characters such a heroes or villains we never could in this life as well.