I don't mind helping out at all. I'll gladly talk to you but it'll be later. I'm drained from work and fixing to head for bed. It's been a long day. I've read what you mentioned about where you come from and live but brain having problems processing things now from lack of sleep lol. The shrinks can only do so much for you until it is left up to you to do the rest. You may have to make some drastic changes in your life or way you think for you to change and like I said it may not be easy but you have to look at what the reward could be, a happier life with friends and love. It is easy to think you are better than other people cause of where you might come from but it's not that way in life. No one is really better than the other person. We all can fall from grace and become monsters or we can rise up and become good people. Myself I live in what would be considered poverty and I work a low paying job a house keeper that mainly just cleans restrooms which I am content with because it's simple and nothing too complex. It allows me to have time to think and just relax. Everyone walks different paths but we all end up the same place eventually.

Bro i dont think am better than anyone , infact i despise alot of my bad behaviour am full of crap man . BUT there is something good i have and people here never heard of it. Its : open minded , mature and analying type of mind. Finland taught me how to be a proffisional at work . People here dont know what professional means . No wonder the country is known and famous in one thing. Growing amazing water mellons. 3rd world countries are controlled like puppets from the dictatorian goverment. I feel sorry for them , but i cant stand them . Not to mention in the 1st 3 month i worked here , 68000 euros has been stolen from the factory and i am responsible . I didnt know how evil and corrupted theifs cloaked as business men can be. I believed him and he took my money and never heard of again. People lie and believe their own lies. I cant trust anyone really . Man i believe in God and i always pray that he gives me strength to stay on my feet and dont give in like crota :p. Really , i meet good people very often and they respect me because of my courrupt free heart. Only the pure people are able to see who is pure or not. They are my customers though. Everything has a beginning , i was a paper delivery boy for almost 2 years and worked in resturaunts kitchens for 3 years and also had a smelly year of cleaning bars , ohhh the bathrooms. Now i own 51% of a factory thankfully. I dont like to show off really and am as humble as i can be. I love the fact that there are really poor people in here that i help , it makes me feel good. The smallest thing i give them makes them smile for a week . They make me feel really good. And my cat is the one who makes me laugh. Cruelity and power try to invade me on daily basis man. Its tempting i must say but thank God for making me fight that off. My cat plays a big role in it. Having a pet will make the heart practice mercy . Man i talk too much sorry . Are you on xbox1 or ps4 ?

I'm on ps4. Would like to get a xbox 1 eventually when I can afford it. It sounds like you are a good person just in a bad place around a lot of bad people. Perhaps you are not the problem but the world around you is what causes you to have problems. Here in america we have our fair share of idiots and close minded people but it is still a great country with very beautiful views to see. I have mostly just lived in one state but I still find beautiful scenery when I drive around the country side. Have you ever thought of moving to another place where you might be happier?

Am on ps4 . May i add u ? I came here to run the factory we own. I gave up Finland for it. But for a reason. My mother and father are my top priorities. They struggled so i can have a good life. They went through alot for my sake and my sister. Il sacrifice everything for them. They are getting old. And will move back to jordan a year from now after 38 years of work in the united arab emirates. I got my hands on the factory and came here 3 years earlier. So when they move back here . ITS MY TURN MAN . Il take care of them now. They drserve much more and i will never be able to pay back a fraction but il do what i can to provide for them their needs and wants. That is why i came here . And i am happy to pay happiness as a price for this sake :). Il keep on fighting dude. I believe i went through the hellish roller coaster through out my years in Finland to toughen up for this. So far my armor and weapons are maxed out and i have lots of extra shards and energy xD

Yeah I don't mind if you do. I don't get on party chat very often except when talking to my brother. Yeah I don't blame you. I was taking care of my mom for quite awhile till she passed away this last Christmas so yeah, I can understand that.

Oh man am veryyy sorry for your loss. I thought am going through shit. While the one trying to help me should be in my place. Man am so sorry , i cant imagine what il do if i was in your place , oh i think am crying