I'm on ps4. Would like to get a xbox 1 eventually when I can afford it. It sounds like you are a good person just in a bad place around a lot of bad people. Perhaps you are not the problem but the world around you is what causes you to have problems. Here in america we have our fair share of idiots and close minded people but it is still a great country with very beautiful views to see. I have mostly just lived in one state but I still find beautiful scenery when I drive around the country side. Have you ever thought of moving to another place where you might be happier?