This is probably garbage advice but, honestly if you let things other people say get to you and they make you depressed/sad/angry, and you continue to value their opinion you'll get stuck in what I call the never-ending loop of despair, it basically states that the worse you feel about yourself the more you will believe negative views of yourself and from others resulting in a worse feeling, despair has no depths, wrath has no end, and fury stretches the world over. there is no limit to how angry,upset,depressed you can feel about yourself, I know I've been on this loop, the only way to end it is to change your perception about yourself how you do this is really dependent on what you believe about yourself, if you believe your lazy (you might not be, I truly was) clean the house up take on some additional responsibility like cooking supper, or taking the trash out)(just an example don't take it as me saying your lazy). Try to find something that makes you feel refreshed, like taking a shower. if you truly believe something about yourself regardless of whether or not its true, fix it then flip the script on whoever said that about you, you mentioned your dad called you stupid, find whatever he likes to do, get smarter than him at it, next time he has trouble with it one up his ass. you also mentioned "Everyone is scared" of your dad. bulk up do some weight training at the school keep at it eventually you won't have to be scared of him anymore, hell you don't even need to be now, muscularity isn't everything, knowledge trumps brawn every time (some people have trouble understanding this "saying", if you get mugged or bullied by someone larger than you and the bully/thug "knows they can do it" you can use this to set a trap for them, personally I just carry a knife people usually "puss out" when they see the 6" double bladed sickle I carry then again they might just be more scared of me than I am of them, pale white guy with purple (bags ? w/e insomniacs get under the eyes ) makes you straight look like a killer or a guy that just doesn't give a -blam!-. TL:DR; Sticks and stones may break your bones but words will only hurt you if you let it, change your perspective of yourself and its like you got god mode shit talkers beware. EDIT1: also doesn't hurt to have a hobby like computer programming(You can teach yourself everything for free online somethings come with experience don't worry you'll mess up alot like I and every other programmer in the world but practice makes perfect plus you not only can do some cool things with programming, you can make your friends jealous, believe you are some computer wizard/hacker, make a great deal of money if you have the conviction to see projects through to the end, get to know some really cool dudes and gals and have a bit of fun.) I also do a little bit of 3d animation not that good but seeing that default cube turn it something halfway decent gives you a great sense of accomplishment. you might like doing something with music. pretty much anything you want to learn you can learn online through sources like youtube, wikipedia, google, Cprogramming.com, cplusplus.com, blender.org, blenderartists.org, etc you can find information on even harder to learn things like Biology, Electrical Engineering, Architecture. The world is what you make it, albeit your going to face more than your fair share of shitty people, shitty jobs, shitty weather, you just gotta take things one day at a time, and find the light that makes everything worthwhile, for me its Electronics, Science and Art, for others its Music, Architecture, Philosophy. While your In school let me warn you DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE THE USEFULNESS OF MATHEMATICS ESPECIALLY ADVANCED MATH LIKE CALCULUS. Math can and will help you in just about every career,job, hobby you can think of math is probably the most useful thing in the world. I know its boring, I know geometry is especially boring, I made the mistake of thinking i could breeze through geometry twice, failed it the first time by 12 points, narrowly passed the second time because I did extra credit. Do good in school try your hardest on your SAT/ACT whichever your state has. get help from tutors if you need it, it doesn't make you any "dumber" than anyone else to ask for help. according to the states of Tennessee and North Carolina I'm mentally retarded because both states refused to take the time to teach me basic algebra and instead labeled me as retarded perhaps in a bid to get more education money I have a much more difficult time trying to get a job (didn't help that I was unaware 6 months at one place is the industry standard to consider you proficient enough to work in that field again) atm not even mcdonalds will hire me. short Stay in school do good, when you get your first job hold on to it for at least 6 months to a year or more before moving on to your next job and when you want to change jobs start applying while you are working at the job you want to leave and make sure you are guaranteed that job before you leave your current one, because if you don't and you quit your job then start looking if you were on your own you'd be up the creek without a paddle. By the way if you haven't noticed I have horrible grammar and typing/writing habits.