I have a similar life story but I can't blame it on weed it was all me and the bad place I was in my own mind. The friends didn't help but I corrupted even more. Weed is not to blame but the poor choices we make. It's easy to shirk the blame but man up and take responsibility. I'm not trying to offend you but they were all your choices that lead you there. I get it but do some soul searching. You know I'm right