It's not purely about winning for me, as I never play with a fireteam, and the matchmaking pairs me with teammates which are far worse, expecting me to carry them.
I regularly have matches with a >2 KD and topping the leaderboard , while the 3rd place of my team already has a 0.7 KD.
I have around 70 "on the bright side medals".
It's more about performing in the best possible way, to the best of my ability.
And with supers/heavy being around constantly, I cannot enjoy this game in terms of gunplay, as there simply isn't any meaningful amount of it in mayhem.
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I enjoy mayhem with my chaperone in between my fist of havoc slams. It is a good laugh and entertains me. At the end of the day, you play games for entertainment. When it is no longer entertainment, what is the point of playing it? That is my take on crucible anyways.