You have no other accounts, your just trying to make up for your lack of experience at the game. Your guns mean nothing, your being matched against newbs like yourself. You could beat them off with a wiffle bat. You should have above a 2, but with 2 matches your barely positive in each. Like I said, my kd was way higher than your my first month at crucible, and I used a blue auto rifle called the silvered hawk - d (or some shit cant remember it was ages ago).